Hei guys, 2018 have ended! For opening, I will not say to long. Direct to the point.
I didn't know why January made me seem not powerful? Not a lie, indeed in this month many matters would occur. In actually, this along I always keep patient, but there is where I am got trial from God. Might God want to give me a lot lesson from the life, from sacrifice and a lot of experience. Just positive thinking. :)
I will tell my bad experience, really not bad, but from that matter even I weeping. Hahaha. Do you know? In this year, exactly on 7 March 2019 I will enter sweet 17 age moment. This is between ordinary and extra ordinary for me. Hm... As a girl student, as a pupil of Senior High School, sure I have fall in love. Have!
I fall in love with a person who made me interest. Kind boy, smart, down earth and wisdom. Also, looks religious. I see, everyone wanna him. Everyone that means for girls. Almost in every corner I hear the people always talked about him.
In initial, I just keep silent, I don't have enough a brave to say about my felt. But like a short, he is approached me, he is talked so much about his self and his family. I wouldn't hurry up for gave all my belief for him, I remembered my self, because a boy usually just play with a woman.
I really fool, when he said he loves me, I also said I love him. I didn't think for a long time. It's so crazy! I like for him. He is like for me. We are walk on the relationship as teenagers on commonly. Not more.
Suddenly we have separated for a long time. The reason is he have love another girl. More shocked the girl who he's love is my best friend. Seriously, I had never trusted it. Honestly, I wouldn't hate my bestie, although she is, and he is had hurt my heart. I trial to sincere they are. But I still love him.
Until yesterday, on Friday 18 January 2019, in scout event, he's go forward in the front of people. He said he loves her. My bestie! At once, I was painful. I saw they are laugh together.
I don't expert the season became dramatic. But the rain suddenly has fall. More dense and densely. My eyes felt warm and at the last I have the sorrow. Without a voice. Without anyone who knew. Only the God and the sky which knew how I very tears.
In more serious condition, in the reality he has love my bestie before walk on in my. side. How this happens? Am I just became a release for him? I want to mad! I want to Anger! But, who am I? I don't deserve for on the warpath.
Once again, I try to sincere, deeper and not the limited. I will go back on the "True Love". The love from God only. I will take a rest for a whole time. Until I find the day, where I am felt good condition. For the really recover.
God don't like, if his slave love a something more than love towards him. So, God always have billions method to met between his slave to make a beautiful fate.
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